Suffering makes you humble, one of the benefits of pilgrimage...
Celestial nervous system is a static magnetic field, eternal self is its heart, but until two hands harmonize, rational mind vs unconscious-sensation.
What we call the mind is magnetic nervous system of a celestial body in motion, and must harness desire to control thinking.
THE SELF IS A SINGLE MIND between two hands of I AM A SPIRITUAL BODY NERVOUS SYSTEM, hence rational & habitual minds could not operate at the same time, power of one is weakness of another.
The unconscious-mind manipulates body nervous system in dream and waking is opposite, but they represent two hands of the same body to make connection and harmonize under a single will.
Flexible nervous system on one hand stays aware of the self and on the other uses ego to experience life, like a dog, your best friend, but at the end must return him back to the self and sacrifice...