Suffering makes you humble, one of the benefits of pilgrimage...
THE MIND IS MAGNETIC NERVOUS SYSTEM OF A SPIRITUAL BODY IN MOTION. Rational-mind is sensational-awareness to harness the self and control thinking v power of emotion over sensational-awareness in a form of ego.
Nervous system of a spiritual body polarizes into unconscious-sensation v conscious-personality to make connection and harmonize under a single will.
Physical dimension reflects spiritual duality, waking body represents the level of self-awareness before unconscious-mind v habitual reflection of ego. Power of outgoing force equals weakness of incoming, what spiritual body could not utilize must excrete, but she has a third eye to open and evolve until strong enough to harness the self and annihilate body polarity.
THE SELF IS DYNAMIC SEED between two hands of I AM A SPIRITUAL BODY NERVOUS SYSTEM, hence light & darkness, rational & habitual minds could not operate at the same time, power of one is weakness of another.
Flexible and durable nervous system on one hand stays aware of the self and on the other uses ego to experience life, like a dog, your best friend but at the end must transmute him back to the self and sacrifice.